so long so long

hmmm.. wasn't that long ago when i was happy and my friend told me perhaps i was lucky too.But say hello to life, it keeps changing.. change is refreshing , not always. change can be pathetic, and disappointing.Now why do i blog if not only its a way to let myself be explained, explanation isn't necessary but its not for the worldthat i explain but to my indivisual shadowed self.There can be better ways but well they may fail so this quest continues to overcome this inner turmoil.have u ever felt lost in the crowd ? i havehave u felt sorry for being happy? i havehave u fallen outta love? i haven'tso is this all about a love failure, indeed we all need an inspiration.Not quite the choice i wud want to make for an inspiration but then you can't control everything.i m no god for christ sake. Now they even say that christ is personification of some belief of sun and zodiacs and all that.but so long it has been sice i met god.but so long it has been since i wanted to give up.and so long it has been since i've lost hope.so long so long.....