Live like the sun, die like the star

Finding a written piece of thoughts that you were sure you had somewhere here and not finding it can be quite disheartening. There are so many things that make me feel the same way, like the song I want to hear right now but cant find it among these thousands of other monotones, or like looking for that tool that would help me finish the job. But putting all this aside, how does all this happen, why do we end up missing things like holes in our realization. Why do we think what is, for it apparently is not. Starting your days with a positive note, finding yourself in a crisis and finishing the day in hope of a better tomorrow, life can turn into sinusoidal curves. We forget that life has always been one curve. Waiting to ride the crest we forget that crest will be followed by the inseparable trough. This crest wont last but then the only curve that can keep me well spirited for tomorrow is the only curve you cant take away, A Smile. I smile, laugh I would rather say on all the misfortunes of the day for they give me, show me the stairway to a lesser painful other days. I constantly seek to smile, for we should learn from the stars who shine brighter as they die but still manage to live long enough to make a show that is recorded in our books and thoughts forever, The Super-Nova. A death we look forward to, the death of a star, quite pleasing for a show of death. I read recently, The stars shine because they bleed. For we must bleed for us to shine.

अनोठेर इयर DOWN

i log on the internet and i see everyone is hoping for a better year ahead. Was it that bad the last year.. have u forgotten the crisis in 2009.. may be some of us wud be praying it to be not as bad as the last year. a li'l difference in choice of the words but they represent your absolute fear and absolute uncertainty of times ahead.
The times that i have had last year have been full of ups and downs.
If i jus prayed that this year would be better than the last then it would be an insult to god or showing me an amazing time in life.. This year, that moment, those friends, that smile will stay there, frozen.. It would never be the same again. I may not feel the same joy for a bigger achievement, i may not feel the same love for a fellow mate, a fellow human being. I may never have a dog again (i had one for 2 days).. jus being positive doesn help. Honestly, if we were all just positives, then the concept of negative numbers would have never existed.. There would be no love because there would be no hate. Its all relative. Who loves me MORE, what shines brighter, Which currency is values MORE.
All i need from the new year is MORE. No i don want MORE i want the same life.. When u ask for more, it also means MORE sufferings, MORE pain. Theres nothing like a free lunch. Somebody has to be sad for your happiness. I got a job , i am happy but somebody is sad because they cudn't.
I got the best gal friend but some one is sad because he thought he loved her MORE than me..
Its bizzare, this concept of MORE. 1 MORE year, so what. Why are you so excited about the new year. Not like you made the last one count. If u did then why worry about the coning one. bask in the glory of past and take one day as it comes, 1 MORE day.
I dont even to put up an new status coz i m sure it will be lost in the sea of updates that people are putting up.
I am here, at sea, wonderign what MORE people are doin at home, different than me. WE had good food, good comfy bed, good life.. I sit admist ocean waves, a sky filled with stars with never seizes to amaze me, a glorious day at work to look forward to..
I hope this new year, people hope to make this world better place. I hope this new year i make good on my words. I hope this new year i am more of a man than i have been. i hope this new year i can make u smile jus one MORE time...

Mistakes in a hope

Ever wondered how we hope for the good things in life and imagine them to last forever..
I come from a conservative country but when i see the epeople from th emodern world, how the fall in love and they fall out as quickly. Why do we begin with the thought that its gonna last forever (read till we die) when it won't .. hell, it doesn over last for a week at times.
Why do things have to last forever for us to give us a sense of comfprt. wont it be easy if we cud jus hope it wud last for few more moments..
We spend the present , worryign about future and well it makes me sad.
we wish our love would last forever and then we see the hot chick with absolutely amazing knockers and the love flies out of the window. And crying, whining, grumping are a side-effect..
whats with forever, we shud have a more believable word like forweek, foramonth...

Back to my original thought process,
Have you ever thought that may be everything around you is an illusion. How do u reckon Murphy's law exists. We make it exists. we make things happen. If thats true then we create out reality and if we do that, then this must be a dream or the manifestation of our mind. Now thats goona bring a lot of criticism from a lot of so called OPTIMISTS.
Think about it, why people whoi believe in the power of sub-concious mind fare so much better in this world of more wrongs than rights, more murphy's law then a lunatic optimist.
I am confused for i always thought i was an optimist. And challenginf myself seems like a nice change..
But for those who never thougth about it, its a food for thought.

friend

So far away from home I am
I faintly miss the friend i called Sam
All the days i spent a while ago
Seems like will take me forever to go
As the sun returned to the south
I hoped the loving words would come to my mouth
I waited for a message, phone or email
here, in a hurry, my ship is setting sail
I asked my captain if we could wait,
a few more moments with my eyes on the gate
As the thoughts stopped, my head felt dizzy
I could see the men in crew getting busy
As they do, They cast off the ropes
why do i sense a similarity with my hopes
Now I am far away from home I am
And I never hear from the friend they call sam.

थे फोर्गोत्तें friend

So far away from home I am
I faintly miss the friend i called Sam
All the days i spent a while ago
Seems like will take me forever to go
As the sun returned to the south
I hoped the loving words would come to my mouth
I waited for a message, phone or email
here, in a hurry, my ship is setting sail
I asked my captain if we could wait,
a few more moments with my eyes on the gate
As the thoughts stopped, my head felt dizzy
I could see the men in crew getting busy
As they do, They cast off the ropes
why do i sense a similarity with my hopes
Now I am far away from home I am
And I never hear from the friend they call sam.

थे फोर्गोत्तें friend

So far away from home I am
I faintly miss the friend i called Sam
All the days i spent a while ago
Seems like will take me forever to go
As the sun returned to the south
I hoped the loving words would come to my mouth
I waited for a message, phone or email
here, in a hurry, my ship is setting sail
I asked my captain if we could wait,
a few more moments with my eyes on the gate
As the thoughts stopped, my head felt dizzy
I could see the men in crew getting busy
As they do, They cast off the ropes
why do i sense a similarity with my hopes
Now I am far away from home I am
And I never hear from the friend they call sam.

स्टोरी ऑफ़ थे man

Here is the story of a man,
who thought who did almost all he can.
all he could dream and all he could push and pull
he exhausted, we thought, his wells to the full
he stood his grounds for his morals were sound
but aint easy when life comes one full round
he was a kid who sung their tunes
he worshipped them heroes like old lunes
he followed the roads told and travelled
and grew to be a man who would do all he can
A rebel for i cant decided if he was without cause
for his victory was their loss but his loss my loss
He battled them long tirlessly and diligently
he never knew his beliefs meant less aristotally
He grew old, tired, bitter and cold
like a farmer who lost his sell after it was sold
he lives and lived those moments which had him sane
For the stone they gave cud not be more insane
He knew his thoughts wudn mean no much
can't remember what he tought his son as such
But one day the son will be a man
A man who will learn to do all he can.